I'm currently working on an essay about survivor guilt in early career academics, and want to hear about experiances of guilt or anxiety directly related to your personal successes in academia. These can be things like publication or conferences acceptances, successful fellowship or grant applications, getting jobs or funding, and also feelings brought up when others either have career related setbacks or don't perform to their own expectations. ALL responses uses in the essay will be anonymous, but if you wish you can leave a contact details for follow-ups.
If you do not currently identify as an early career academic, please feel free to still contribute, but limit your responses to times you did identify as early career.
I am leaving the definition of 'early career' deliberately open.